歌手:Hotel Books
专辑:《Everything We Could Have Done Differently》

It's a terrible statement but I never let it leave my side.
That sickening realization that I'm done with this fight.
Moments kneeling on the bedroom floor
sickened by the entity I had absorbed no more.
I would not let the self-scrutinizing endeavor
endure a precipice a monologue questioning my every motive.
My disaster stricken heart feeling broken,
my emotions quoted spilling out of a broken vase
taking the place of what was once your emotion.
Diluted with tears, an open book scribbled with fears
engraved pools of ink I'm vocally shook;
and I'm tired of telling myself that it's gonna change.
Taken by the spectacular lie that existence can end.
Faulse-hoods predicted my sinners dictated my every decision.

An exit of sorts seemed logical,
cause I thought I could silence this breath.
But contrary to my mindset,
I circumvented my threats to silence
the demons singing songs in my head;
whispering in my ear, that ending it all is a safe bet.

Comforting me as I try to manipulate my end.
Those moments when I decided I couldn't handle this anymore!
Pins and needles infected every sensation I had left!
Feeling like this love I had once found had been torn open
and left broken in the cold
-that the seams holding it together ripped open
and my flesh tore open with that is I pray that my breathing would stop.
And as I held those staining memories, I held on so tightly;
remembering what life used to mean.
Selfishly ready to embrace the fact that I am weak!

But then I called to you, and I hoped someone would find me;
and I found you, and I had hoped someone would call me!
Cause I'm listening to these echoes of my own voice
leaving damage in the cold,
as I feel I have finally grown to the point where I can snap.
A point of knowing I could never go back...
And it's in the moments I felt most alone.
That I told myself no one was there for me;
and little did I know,
love with sitting right beside me, I just wasn't listening.
At this point in my life I don't know many things,
but I can promise you this - You are loved completely.