歌手:Juice WRLD
专辑:《Fighting Demons (Digital Deluxe)》

作词 : Jarad Higgins/Marshall Mathers
作曲 : Jarad Higgins/Marshall Mathers
I think it was–, I took my first Vicodin
It was just like, this feeling of "Ahh"
You know, like everything was not only mellow
But didn't feel any pain
They just didn't–, it just kind of numbed things
I don't know at what point exactly it started to be a problem
I just remember likin' it more and more
People try to tell me that I had a problem
I would say "Get that ****in' person out of here
I can't believe they said that shit to me
They know nothin' about my ****in' life
Are they out of their ****in' mind?"
I'm not out there shootin' ******
I'm not out there ****in', you know
Puttin' coke up my nose, I'm not smokin' crack
You're struggling with the argument of
"Do you have a problem
Or do you not have a problem?
Can you control it, or can you not?"
And I literally thought I could control it
You're taking things that people are giving you that
You don't even know what the **** they are
They look like a pill, and they look–
They're shaped like something that you take
So you take it, you know
Xanax, Valium, tomato-tomato
You know what I mean? It's th– the same thing
It's all in the same family, **** it, take it
Had I had gotten to the hospital about two hours later
I would've died
My organs were shutting down, my liver, kidneys, everything
They were gonna have to put me on dialysis
They didn't think I was gonna make it
My bottom was gonna be death, within a month, I had relapsed
And shot right back up too, insane amount of pills that I was taking
I remember just walking around my house and thinking every single day
Like "I'm gonna ****ing die", like, I'm– I'm looking at my kids
And I need to be here for this
Coming off of everything
I literally was up twenty-four hours a day for three weeks straight
And I mean not sleeping, not even nodding off for a ****ing minute
Like, I was literally just up, like, looking at the TV
I had to regain motor skills, I had to regain talking skills
It's been a– a learning process, like, it's been, I'm growing
I just couldn't believe that anybody could ever be naturally happy
Or naturally function, or be just enjoying life in general, without being on something
So, I would say that t– to anybody that I– it does get better, you know? It just– it does