歌手:Niu Mao
专辑:《Beautiful Chaos》

作词 : Niu Mao
作曲 : Niu Mao
(编写于2015年10月份）

Looking out, walking out
Everyday and every sigh
Muttering swear words under my breath
Put on a smile when I cut it out

I give it out give them all out
I pour it down poured it all gone
Sometimes I’m right sometimes I’m wrong
They give a hell or they see thin air

I’m falling into something I’m already in
I’m so disgusted yet so satisfied
Things go in order I can see a clear line
No its still a mess who am I fooling

I feel my body relaxed take a deep breath
Though heart beat fastened I went stupid again
I want a giant filter over my eyes
Filter out the idiots that go by

It don’t make sense, it really just don’t
I numb myself from feeling too much
But in the end they all come back
Can’t shut my views can’t shut my ears

I’m falling into something I’m already in
I’m so disgusted yet so satisfied
I have directions nothing will stop me
What am I scared of what is it

I don’t hate myself
But I rarely feel loved
I feel mentally alone
Though surrounded by friends
Why would I have to smile
When I feel like
They don’t give a hell
They want to feel good themselves

I’m falling into something I’m already in
I’m so disgusted yet so satisfied
Life is great what do I have to complain
Let the needles go in I know when it stops

Looking out, walking out
Everyday and every sigh
Muttering swear words under my breath
Look at this chaos it’s so beautiful